About Me

My Testimony

Walking with God has been an incredible journey. From my earliest memories God has provided a steady hand in guiding my foot steps towards Him. Always endeavoring to make sense of this world and listening to the gentle call of our Father has instilled in me an appreciation for the purpose God brings to life, for without God life is senseless.

This is me when I made my first communion as a Catholic. Having a hungry heart I eagerly believed all they taught me. I can't explain it but there was something about the stories they told about Jesus that captured my imagination. I found it captivating that Jesus would go about healing people. Even more captivating was Jesus being able to go up to complete strangers - say follow me - and they did. I pondered that experience thinking to myself - how would I react to a stranger saying follow me? Growing up in Brooklyn it would be unlikely on my part to respond the way the disciples did. Then I would often wonder if Jesus did so much good back then - where is He now? Those nuns sparked an interest but they had no answers and I was reluctant to ask them questions - knowing that a bothered nun could be hard on the backside.

I wish I could say that what they fed me was able to sustain me during the next dozen or so years but sadly and all too commonly the voices and temptations of this world led me down a dark Godless path. Being a teenager in the late sixties should suffice in letting you know of my lifestyle. Although I must say that having a faith in God spared me from the very worst things that could have happened to me. Not because I would not have involved myself but because being able to look back I now know God had different plans for me so His mercy watched over me. I can very honestly say with full assurance that if God had not protected me I would most likely have died a long time ago.

I am not among God's more obedient children and I am a bit thick headed wanting to do what I want to do. Those years saw me not just a rebellious hippie, but I was married by 21 and divorced by 23 and in between I had two children I love dearly - but now only seeing them through court orders. Overcoming despair was not easy. Life as the world had to offer would have made me glad to have a very short life.

After the divorce, being all alone I remember calling out to God in my despair and at that low point in my life God threw out the life preserver. I had enough of drowning in life's bitter waters so when opportunity made itself available to me I ran fast to that secure feeling I had as a child. I knew where home was and the prodigal son was ready to trade the trash of this world for the glories of my God.

It was September of 1980 when Jesus came to me in a dream, in that dream I was suddenly enveloped in light. Instantly I fell prostrate on the floor. In my mind I was aware that a miracle was taking place in my life. I wanted to see the source of that light so I peeked up a bit and before me was a little candle and as I peeked at the flickering flame I was overwhelmed with more joy than I ever felt before. That was the whole dream - but that was enough. God is so awesome and His wisdom so intense. For some, His reaching out has to be more dramatic and sledge hammer like, but for me that was enough to anchor my soul unmovable. All God really had to do was point me in the right direction, and that He did by sending me to fellowship with a very precious people. I had a hunger that God did not have to create and I already knew this world was not for me.

So when He passed by that night my heart was already ready to grasp onto my second chance to find meaning in life. Since that night miracles have steadily flowed throughout my life letting me know what a wonderful thing it is to be in the family of God. Well, the very next day after that dream the first of God's miracles was enacted - a cousin of mine invited me to go with him to a friends house. I went to what turned out to be a prayer meeting / Bible study. There were about 7 or 8 people there all talking about God in a way that I never heard as a Catholic, and when they prayed it was out loud and demonstrative and they all sounded foreign to me praying in an unknown language. Keep in mind God had previously prepared my heart otherwise normally I couldn't get out quick enough. So the first miracle was that I found myself just sitting there and listening to all that was going on around me. I was like a dry sponge just soaking up every last word. These people weren't talking about a Jesus that lived two thousand years ago - they were talking about experiences they were having with Jesus today. My curiosities that were sparked by the nuns - who only spoke of Jesus in the past tense - were now being answered by the people in this small prayer meeting talking about what Jesus was doing for them now. And that was the answer that eight year old boy was looking for. Jesus is still doing today exactly what He has always done - seeking and saving the lost.

From that moment on learning about Jesus became my passion. I fellowshiped faithfully with my new family and whatever they showed me to do in the Bible I did. They told me to turn from sin, and I did. They told me to be baptized in the lovely Name of Jesus, and I did. Then they told me God was willing to fill me with His Spirit if I asked Him to, so I did and God did! Praise God! Everything happened so quickly. Within a two week period I went from total despair and loneliness to being surrounded, loved and nurtured by a whole church full of people, and I might add these are the greatest bunch of Saints anywhere on earth. All these years I have remained faithful to God and loyal to my church. God has been incredibly good to me. All the years I've been serving God that sense of joy I got that night has never left me but has grown richer and deeper. That same sense of joy is tied to His continual presence in my life and that is what compels me study and write. So others can grasp onto everything that is provided freely - when His presence abides with you.

Space would not allow an accounting of all His blessings to me. I just want to close with this thought. God brought me into the church by showing me a candle. In the book of Revelations candles represented churches. Now I saw just a little candle but I now believe God was showing me my future work and the joy I would feel in in fulfilling my calling. I am not called into doing any great works. I'm not a preacher or public speaker but my heart and soul will find blessing and joy in just being able to help you my friend. Hence the purpose of maintaining this web site. My little flame shining forth for Jesus. So now here we are -2026- forty six years later and all I have - came from being a child of God, and this is what I offer to you, peace, love, joy, security, and hope. I sincerely hope God blesses you as you go through the materials provided. In the lovely Name of Jesus, be blessed.

P.S. Here a few more pictures.

Before Jesus